Zhuang Zi is one of my favourite Chinese philosophers. Reputedly coming from a noble family that had seen better days in the State of Song, Zhuang Zi came to prominence under the patronage of King Weiwang of Chu.
One of his sayings struck a particular resonance with me, as I sat here yesterday.
“A man good at employing his wits is not happy when he does not see the chances to develop his thoughts; a man good at debates is not happy when he does not find the opportunity to display his eloquence; a man good at picking mistakes is not happy when he does not have a chance to vent his reproaches. They are all confined by external things.”
(‘Zhuang Zi Says’, Sinolingua, 2006)
Whilst I would not consider myself either witty or eloquent, I would consider myself fairly good at pointing out mistakes. Maybe that’s why I ended up in accounts, and was tempted to move over to the dark side of audit. However, several events over the last couple of days have resulted in some soul searching and wondering where this ‘blog’ was going.
I had intended that the ‘blog’ would reflect my interests, but have found that the content was usually tabloid in nature; the obvious reason being that those subjects provided most amusement for me at the time.
So, to the events that made me re-evaluate my approach.
Firstly, someone that I have come to consider as a friend started a second discussion group forum. Eric Wittenberg has written a number of books on the American Civil War, and has run the Civil War Discussion Group for a number of years. This has provided a great deal of enjoyment for me, over the last few years, and has enabled me to develop my interest in the conflict and the chance to have met a number of people I still keep in contact with. He has now started a second discussion group on the American Revolution, which I have also joined. The links are provided at the side of the home page. Eric has provided the opportunity to provide a forum for interested parties to discuss another aspect of world history, and for that I’m grateful.
Secondly, I must admit that I look at the ‘Blog Stats’ provided by the site provider. Some of the searches indicated show that I’m not really providing the type of ‘blog’ that satisfies me, although I am grateful for the number of people who’ve taken the time to read my posts. I really am! However, whilst the government cutting back on the British X-Files, Zinedine Zidane, and Gwyneth Paltrow have all provided lots of links to my ‘blog’; these areas don’t really interest me.
Thirdly, I have asked several people their thoughts on the site. The feedback has suggested that I would be, perhaps, best using what talents I have elsewhere; and where my interests truly lay.
This takes me back to Zhuang Zi. My real interests lay in the past, and not using the opportunity to share and develop my understanding has left me just a little unhappy and unfulfilled. Despite the fact that the ‘blog’ will be of far less interest to the majority who take their valuable time to read the ‘posts’, in fairness to myself, I have decided to be self-indulgent and satisfy my interest in history instead.